I have just read, "I have but a few minute before the cafe closes, consequently this will not be the most eloquent post I've written (if ever I have written an eloquent post). The search for a graduate school continues. I am in the process of planning a road trip to Rochester, New York to visit the University of Rochester. I am excited by the adventure, fearful of the risks involved, and quite frankly baffled as to why I am going. The univerisity has shining points, as does any university, but it doesn't feel like a perfect match, at least not logically. I keep returning to the university homepage and reading the content as if something new will emerge. But the courses, the faculty, the program remain the same. I look at other programs, but my heart returns to Rochester. Why is this?" posted by "creativity in community.

Dear Creativity in Community:
It seems our group will be permanently separated in a short while. I, on my adventures in looking for a full time position, have fallen in love with Alpharetta, GA. There are several colleges in the area, and I am willing to work in three of the colleges part time to stay there. When I look at positions elsewhere, at areas with several colleges to work in, I always return to Alpharetta. I have started the journey of emerging myself with the people by inviting those that on FB to befriend me. It sadness my heart to leave here, but I know I must take this journey. Whenever a pastor had spoken about a "calling," I  halfheartedly understood what he meant. Now I know. It isn't so much a want to go, although that is definitely behind the decision, but it is a "feeling" that calls to you no matter the reasons for not leaving. I believe this will be the place I will be able to "spread my wings." If I fail to get to Alpharetta--I will not fail!--my heart will run dry. I know, in my heart, Fort Wayne is not the place for me to stay, for many reasons. The reasons to go and the reasons to stay are evenly weighed until I take into account "What do I want, what do I feel, what is my dream, what about ME?" I discovered a part of me, it is time to discover the rest of me. Creativity in Community, together, our separate ways, we have made the right decisions and share a great journey!